So my last journal entry was myself pleading for people to donate to my "Make a New Start" fund. Well I raised just enough to pay my first month's rent but the move itself plus the deposit took a toll on me financially. My new job in Lake Tahoe wasn't to start until nearly a month after my move. I had to take out a title loan on my car that hadn't even been paid off a year. The only reason why I wanted to make the move in the first place is because I'd gotten enough out of debt that I could afford it. Well, a month into my move and there I was again with a car payment. F*ck!
So now it's March, nearing the end already, and my job has been going great plus I got a second job just in case the snow season didn't go as well as hoped. I was finally starting to feel settled in when...ready...my roommate decided to tell me it just wasn't going to work out. "You're a great roommate, don't get me wrong. The dogs just aren't working out..." What a crock of shit! I know she wants he best friend to move in. She must really think I don't have a clue. As I am typing this, that best friend is here, again! I know the dog excuse is a lie because her dog, as anxious as he is, doesn't like going outside to run unless my two are with him. She has sent me text showing me how cute the dog were sharing a single dog bed together. "Dog Pile" as she captioned it. I posted a photo a few weeks back of all the dogs sharing my bed. Dogs will be dogs and they bark at each other or snarl at each other now and again but overall, they get along. Why can't she just tell me the truth instead of making up a lie...hmmm? She has no balls.
The snow season up here will be winding down by mid-April and my paychecks are only getting smaller. Have I had a chance to save up? Hell no. I have a car payment now and back in January, I had to get new tires because it was just time. There went another $400 and that was a killer deal. Don't forget I had to eventually pay the deposit, which I did. There went more money I could have been saving. Now here I am trying to find a job to tide me over until the next snow season and trying to figure out where I am going to live.
What do I have to do? That's my question. What do I have to do to just live my live without stupid petty people and not having to worry about where to live or work? Sure I can pick up more hours with my second job but who really wants to be stuck inside all day in a badly ventilated, smokey casino? I found a job for the summer, but that's all, the summer. I still have September, October, November, oh and May.
End of rant!
Listening to: NIN
Drinking: Green Tea